Ive been gone for soooo long.. and there are many such reasons which i will rant about...

RANT BELOW!!!!one!

Mmkay the last time i did a piece and uploaded it wasssss.... Nov 2008... thats a long while Mainly because doing art at school eats my inspiration and destroys it kinda and then i wonder about whether i should do it next year and now im not sure. :\

Also i have been going to a psychologist about my periods of ... upsettedness...
Yeah thatsa really long story about heartbreak in there which lead to my sadness (i don't wanna say despression... cus i dunno they're diffrenet things) to get worse and so i would pretty much cry everyday over this heartbreak and gah just spiraled downward.

Also long and confusion paths of sexuality which i think im pretty set for now was a big downer for a while.

I'm really sensitive to like any form of dissapointment now so like if i get the slightest discouragment and sledging on me while my hopes and mood is up i totally crash and become dispondant at everything.

Intense Episodic Dysphoria. Is what i have. SO yeah ive been really uninspired drawing stuff here and there. I have some pics i would upload just need to get round to it. Be easier if the scanner was in mah room.... but its not :\

Also im like only just passing school cus im too damn lazy to be bothered to do any work for it D:

So yeah i think ill try and come back now and start drawing again and slowly pick up using photoshop again a bit later



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Yeah things ill probably be scanning at some points.

New characters design.
Random people/ characters :\
Yaoi O_O cus i love eet
Maybe some stories :\


Im currently inspired soooo lets hope it lasts longer than my 5 minute usual

Why live? If you cannot have what you cherish most?

Whats the point? The one you try so hard for, the one you would do anything for. The one you save the last cupcake for. The one you thought you were special to. You could never know love with them.

You don't want anyone else but them... And you can't. Would you live?

-collapse-

now is that a swear word? Would any of you out there think that damn or damnit or anything of that be a swear word?

I get suspended from a kids site for saying it. They dont even warn you about saying it, they say your swearing but to me its not a word that would offend really

THe only way i can see it offending people is if you add another insulting word to it like: "Your a damned idiot".

It just seems to be an adjective to me to make things seem more extravagant. Or an expression to mean something did not go according to plan.

What do you think?

1) Full name?
Sean George S

2) Male/Female?
Male

3) Were you named after anyone?
not my first name, my middle is my grandfathers i think.
4) Does your name mean anything?
God is Gracious

5) Nickname(s)?
no... i get called Corn but puff or occasionally "YOU THERE" by others


6) What do you think you look like?
Orange hair pale skin, skinny. Sick and unhealthy you could put it.

7) Date of birth?
10 April 1993

8) Place of birth and current location?
Perth, Australia for both.

9) Nationality?
Im Aussie. Parents = British.

10) Astrology sign?
Aries

11) Chinese astrology sign?
Rooster

12) Religion?
Anglican. Unfortunately.

I'd rather be aethiest or something

13) What's your favorite smell?
salt and vinegar chips.

14) Political Position?
I dont understand... but politics doesnt interest me.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Sustegin milk.... its my excuse for skipping lunch.

16) Hair + eye color?
Hair = Auburn/Orange. Eye = Grey/blue/green ( a mix )

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... NO


18) What do you look like?
Orange hair emoish styled. pale skin. Skinny. Tired all the time. Tallish for a 15 year old.

19) Any unusual talents?
~I used to be double jointed in my thumb.
~I can stretch my arm across my shoulders(horizontal)
~i can seperate my pinky toe from the rest of my toes
~I can my my toung wide or narrow

Im a weird boy arent I?

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
Righty

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
Bi

22) What do you do for a living?
Student

23) What do you do for fun?
I try to draw or write or compose... but mostly fail so i talk on the phone and get brain cancer.

24) Materials to work with?
a mechnical pencil and eraser and fine liner occasionally

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
a tablet >_>

26) Have you met your grandparents?
yes both

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
Nope. I did in year 4 and kindy... and now nothing... something changed... >_>

28) Crush?
Yeah i suppose >_> on a girl (you sneaky thinking people)


29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
Alyson Hannigan (Willow from Buffy if you didnt know)

30) Current worries?
My photography homework that i havent started and is due in a day

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
what? Like internet friend? if its that then Kayla i suppose? If its online now? i favour those ones equally?

32) Favorite place to be?
wherever my closest friends are

33) Least favorite place to be?
Classes in school without friends or home without entertainment from close friends.

34) Do you burn or tan?
I burn >_>

35) Ever break a bone?
nope, dont plan to either.

36) What is your favorite cereal?
fruitLoops? Frosties! one of those two

37) Person you cry with?
Ive nearly cried with Sara and Gianni i think but mainly myself.

38) Any sisters?
My older sister, Stephanie

39) Any brothers?
Gianni, my chosen brother.

40) Any pets?
My current fish and my cat: Midnight (we're so original)

41) An illness?
Some mental disorder probabely anything from ADHD to Boarderline personality disorder.

42) A pager?
nope

43) A personal phone line?
no -_-

44) A cell phone?
Yes...

45) A visible birthmark?
no

46) A pool or hot tub?
Pool

47) A car?
I dont own a car ... mother and father both do

48) Personality?
Ack. Personality, me? Im questionable in my self. I am who you or I want to be? I am slightly sadistic but i care for those around me. I dont believe in God. I am most likely mentally insane in some form and I am untrusting to those i dont know. I appeal to peoples better even at the cost of my sanity. Want to know more? Too bad >_>

49) Driving?
Cant. Unless i steal a car and some keys.

50) Your clothing style?
Black Jeans, random T-shirt that has cool or meaningful print on it, converse shoes and a hoodie jumper.

51) Room?
Blue, piano, FF posters, Tekken poster, Katan on piano, White wardrobe, Computer with desk, Mess, shelf with books, manga and ornaments. fluffy blue seat and a mod seat. Nearly forgot i have a bed too.

52) What’s missing?
My sanity, wanna give it back?

53) School?
Can go die in a hole.

54) Bed?
Is where im heading after this

55) Relationship with your parent(s)?
I hate them. After i can supply for myself fully i couldnt care less.

56) Do you believe in yourself?
Nope, sometimes but im proberly disillusioned then.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Hah... no

58) Consider yourself a good listener?
I think so, I try.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?
I dont have and dreams for my futur, i dont live for myself.

60) Get along with your parents?
No i dont.

61) Save your e-mail conversations?
If they were important or meaningful to me.

62) Pray?
No.

63) Believe in reincarnation?
Yes.

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?
No, but im suppose to brush 3 times, but again i dont.

65) Like to talk on the phone?
Yes i do. It gets me through the day.

66) Like to eat?
Occasionaly i suppose


67) Like to exercise?
no. but i should.

68) Like to watch sports?
never. It's boring

69) Sing in the car?
Not in the car, in the shower i do.

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?
Im in this weird place with a strange tower that curves out into the sea that if you look through to the other side when standing in it you can see the universe. Odd eh?

71) Dream in color?
Yup.

72) Do you have nightmares?
Yes, i used to only have nightmares but i get dreams now too.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal?
not any more...

74) What's right next to you?
the computer (I sit crooked allright?)

75) What's on your favorite mug?
I dont have a favourite mug.

76) What's on your mouse pad?
Dont use a mousepad.
77) Your favorite flavor of gum?
Cant eat it... probly grape though.

78) Your brand of deodorant?
Lynx or Rexona men

79) Your dream honeymoon spot?
I dont know >_> somewhere good.

80) Your dream husband/wife?
I DONT KNOW >_>!!

81) What's hiding in your closet?
Stolen recorders >_>....<_<...>_>

82) Under your bed?
maybe dead bodies, dunno?

83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?
Gianni or Sara... indecisive.

84) Your bad time of the day?
Any time if i dont get enough sleep.

85) Your worst fear(s)
Getting old, losing my friends.

86) What's the weather like?
dark... its night time.

87) Your favorite time of year?
meh its all pretty much the same.

88) Your favorite holiday?
A holiday.

89) A material weakness?
videogames?

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like?
White chocolate mixed with chicken.... its nice okay!

91) At the top of your "to do list"?
Photography homework.... i never do my priorities in order...

92) The hardest thing about growing up?
School and dealing with depression... it would suck...


93) A pet peeve?
I dont understand this question..... .................... ...

94) Your scariest moment?
Dunno i dont remember one.

95) Your attitude about love?
Meh its good aslong as you dont become a fool over it.

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done?
Not sure....

I remember recently i tried to explain to a physics teacher that i wasnt doing my homewokr at recess it was a illusion of light.

97) The worst feeling in the world?
Sadness and you happiness being killed. When your excited and someone just kills your mood... its horrible.

98) The best feeling in the world?
Being supieror

99) Who sent this to you?
No-one i chose to do it from Emma's

100) 5 people to send this test too?
Whoever wishes to do it....

Sorry ive been lazy, i haven really felt like writing recently but i promised myself i would try to tonight so the next chapter should be up in a couple of days. Ive been exited about the colouring and ive had a good run with drawing but ive stuffed a few up recently so im back to writing till i can draw again.

sorry